Another overdue update

Again it seems like an eternity since my last posting.I finally getting somewhere with my weightloss efforts.I finally reached 181 lbs.21 lbs left until goal.WOW can you believe it!!!!I am working real hard in the gym and I am being very dilligent what enters my mouth.I have finally realized also why I was overweight before and I am making changes that I will never end up in that stage again.I realized due to unhappiness in my life I was putting up walls and the only comfort I found was in food.Now I dont need food for stress.BREAKTHROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!
So you might ask yourself what the changes are.Well all I can tell you that my life and soul are under construction at the moment.As a good friend Gerry put it nicely is that I am a cacoon growing into a beautiful butterfly who is trying to find who she is.I think he is correct.I have been with Mike for over 20 years.I was really young when we met and I had kids at a young age and I followed his career while trying to have jobs on the side(not careers).
When I went to Basic Training I had lots of growing to do and once we moved to Winnipeg I was finally able to destroy my walls.Should I be happy now???? Yes is the answer for some but my answer is NO<<>>I am still searching who I AM.
Simple you say<<<
Mike is trying real hard to change and to make me happy like a good husband would do to keep his family together.Will it be enough for me?? Again I dont know.I am going for a soul searching trip to Alberta on my own for a week.Not sure if I get the answer I am looking for. All I can say at the moment is that I have ONE GOAL that I need to achieve: Lose weight and succesfully graduate and complete my training to finally be the only thing I am sure about.Well that's all I have for today and I will keep you all updated.And to Mike who is going to read this : Thank you !!!

WOW it's been a long time!!!

Sorry folks for waiting this long to post again.Since September when I last posted there has been a few changes to my life.I have been promoted twice at my job,first to trainer and a week later to Supervisor.The changes are great because it's teaching me to take control.After a weigh in in September I was approached by my leader and she told me that I am in fact on a plateau and if I want to continue on losing weight I need to make changes and hard changes.So I re-evaluated my diet and exercise and realized that I relaxed my efforts way to much and got WAY to comfortable.I was afraid that I could fall into the same old habits again and gain weight back.So I changed my diet again and I make sure I weigh and measure all my foods again and stuff myself with more filling foods.When I started September 18th I weighed 211 and then the weight just melted off.I had one bad weigh in of a .2 gain but since then I lost 14.4 lbs and finally reached below 200.WOW I am so happy.Finally below 200!!!!

I have 35 lbs left to lose before I reach my goal.I am nearing the end of my journey to the Thin me and I am excited to see how maintance will work.On another note I have a test,medical and interview with the Forces for the ROTP program to become an officer.I need to score just 3 pts higher then last time to qualify for the program.If I dont succeed I will go back as a NCM .This time around basic training will be so much easier.I now am up to 15 good push ups and my run I can pass with flying colours.On the running front I am having a small medical issue that's holding me back at the moment of training LD.I have been diagnosed with stress incontince and I am being refered to a specialist.I am hoping that I dont need surgery to correct this issue.Weight loss comes with problems but this is a small problem that I am also going to conquer and win.I am planning on doing a few races next year with one of them being a Half in June or April.I will keep you posted on the results for both soon.Until then toodles