Today's blog is about my obsession with my weight and my body: I never really had the perfect body or was at the perfect weight.As a teenager I was really overweight and was sent to boot camp to lose weight....kind of like the biggest loser ranch...I was close or over 180 lbs at age 13...I was crowned the biggest female loser there....when I returned home I stayed thin for a bit and gained some back....not alot but some....I bounced up and down with my weight ever since....my body has endured lots of crap....to this date I have lost 93.6 lbs....it took me over 3 years to lose it but I didn't entirely stick with it all the time either...my body now is sowing the signs of Jo-Jo dieting...no matter how hard I work I will always have a body with "battle scars"....so sometimes I think why bother....why do I bother...because of my health is the answer....I can always have surgery to remove it but will I be happy????Most likely not...because there is always something that you are not going to like about your body...so I am hoping that eventually my stomach will get flatter and just have loads of stretchmarks....as long as I dont have to show my body naked to anyone I should be good....my husband is overweight as well....he blames it on his work schedule and lack of time he has to go to the gym....however this time he is losing with me again and following my food plan...to date he lost 18.5 lbs....I hope that this time he is going to stick with it and not drag me down again when he is done with the life style change....I do believe that he is not doing it in purpose and yes I should be stronger and not get dragged down...but it is hard....I dont know that he understands that I am just "growing up" and still debating what I want to be when I grow up.....my dreams have changed....I now want to be a runner and sign up for races of all kinds,I want to train others that are having problems,I want to be a personal trainer/nutrition coach.....I want to be so much and dont know if it is something we can share....he loves me and I love him but the dreams and future looks different for both us....I am so thankful to have a support circle on Facebook, my friends close and far and my running support group. Below are some pics of my disgusting belly...the top picture was taken in October 2009 and the one below just yesterday.And I almost forgat I lost another pound in my weigh in this morning.Total loss of 15 lbs with WW .