This is my first blog

Hello to all....I wanted to start blogging because so many of my friends keep telling me how much of an inspiration I am to them....at first I thought that they are all crazy....I am just a "FAT" girl trying to get my life back and discover the "THIN" me ....I always had problems with my weight,when I was younger I was sent to a bootcamp for 6 weeks to lose weight.I lost alot of weight and when I got back home I fell back into the cycle.I gained some back, however after picking up bad habits like smoking,drinking and boys I managed to stay thin.At the age of 16 I moved away from home into a house that many young troubled girls just like me lived.....Living in Lahr/Germany was great for me, I explored different work opportunities and ended up in Hairdressing School...I met my husband at a bar and we got married after I turned 18.Before we got married I became lazy and got introduced to Canadian junk food.I went from 65 kilograms to 95 kilograms in the first 6 months of marriage.For our church wedding I needed to lose 5-10kg to fit into my dress...which I did.Of course after marriage comes the baby carriage....lol.I was young and thought I could get pregnant NO problems,right? Wrong...I got pregnant after moving to Canada which was a year later.My son Kevin was born in September 1994...I didnt gain any weight during my pregnancy I was just fat from before.In 1995 I had to fly back home because my grandmother was sick,after my return when Kevin was about 7 months old I got pregnant again with my daughter....she was born March 1996...This is when my vicious cycle of Jo-Jo dieting started.I would lose shit load of weight and for some reason gain it all back and more,of course thats howit goes.....this is all for now more to come I promise..