Reflection

" Reality check: you can never, ever, use weight loss to solve problems  that are not related to your weight. At your goal weight or not, you still have to live with yourself and deal with your problems. You will
still have the same husband, the same job, the same kids, and the same life. Losing weight is not a cure for... ...life. "

The above quote is just something I wanted to share with you all.
As I am sitting here drinking my second cup of green tea I can't help but to reflect my last years.It seems like a rollercoaster that doesn't want to stop.It all started that one day at work when I was out of breath from running to the bathroom in between calls.That was the time I realized that I needed to change my life...I thought I start with the easy one: loosing weight.I thought to myself that after kicking the smoking habit that this one should be easy too.My journey started slow and I did well in the beginning,weight was just melting off like butter.Then I started what I now call a joke of hard training.I continued on doing well until I broke my foot in basic and gained some weight back.Now I am on the road to success.
There are of course like the qoute says the same kids and husband.My daughter I am praying for really hard that she finds the light and grows up to be a responsible,loving,mature,beautiful young lady.Right now she is heading down the wrong way,please pray with me.
My son is now doing very well after some issues he was dealing with in North Bay.
My husband I think realized that he needs to start his journey to become and healthy and stay that way.He seems to have the tendacy to start something but not sticking with it.I hope he finds himself too.
As for me I found myself and I am staying strong to continue this journey.I haven't lost as much as I hoped for but I am gaining much success in the running front.Every day I head out to run or work out with my personal trainer I doubt my abilities.I have to keep telling myself that I am NO longer the weak person I used to be.I am STRONG!!!!!!
Since I started logging my running in February 2010 I have completed 57 runs totalling 160.29 miles,the most this month of  55.56 miles and my overall pace went from 12:45/mile to 11:18/mile.That is huge improvement.I love Facebook and the Running page they have.I have befriended myself with total strangers, they cheer me up and on every day I post my runs or workouts.Although I hated moving to Winnipeg and leaving my friends behind I now realize it is the best move we ever did.I have new friends,new job, the perfect trainer and a nice city to live in(sorry to all my friends in North Bay,I do miss all of you).I have become a different person that I love.I look in the mirror and I am actually happy with what I see.I look great with my new haircut and new found confidence and it shows.I wear make-up every day now and I am smiling :-)
I also look great sporting my new clothes (pants size 14 and tops regular sixe XL or smaller).
So my journey continues.....