Ok so I really want to confidently go in the direction of my dream but maybe my dream was to crazy.I really do want to thank all the people that believed that we can get the money together for my "dream" of running the Diva Half in Long Island NY and to all the folks that donated money towards the cause.I do however think that this is not going to be a dream that is going to get fulfilled this year.
Who am I kidding,I have $189 USD and for my ticket alone I would need between $600-800.I am thankful for Frank to offer his couch to sleep on and to drive me where I need to go.Lisa is a great friend who reminded folks again to donate a few bucks towards my cause and of course H Joe to start it all.Also my friend Mary who has been trying and telling everyone my story.THANKS from the bottom of my heart.
Everything other then my job is going shitty,I have lost the drive to lose weight and eat healthy 100% and with my running I really want to follow my training plan for running, but deep down I know that I am chasing a dream.
I will continue on running and praying that somehow by miracle money will show up and I can go fulfill my dream.My sister was saying that she would love to help but she also thinks that it's a CRAZY dream.
As for my "DIET" I need a swift kick in the ASS.I try everyday to be good and every day I sabotage myself.I gain and I make lame excuses on why I did.Blame the sodium in food or sometime my period.ALLL EXCUSES.I know that the cause is that I am NOT following plan and that is why,SIMPLE.It's depressing that I am the cause to my own misery.Lord please give me the strenght I need to shed the last pounds.Also give me the strenght to continue in my training and my faith of the collections of funds needed.Dont get me wrong this is not at all a pity note for anyone to help me.I just needed to relief my heart and soul.I will continue and try to rise up from the ashes and shine.
You are an amazing daughter of the King of Kings...we all have dreams BUT never forget that Gods dreams are even bigger than our own. Its not always easy to understand that but just try to believe it :) He loves you soooooooooo much Pina, maybe He wants you to want to be healthy for Him first, then for you and your dreams? I am not saying this as fact, just thoughts :) I wish you were here for me to give a hug to right now....you rock on sista...you ARE an inspiration! If you need to check in with someone to keep you on track with your food journal or something feel free to use moi :) Just setting it out there....you certainly do not have to....I can just love and pray fo ryou....hugz
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